Sheesh! notinn to saee. Bitch. Sluts. Get off me! Puh-leease! i mean it.
I reali frustrated. dissapointed.
ARGg!

Fiza (w/o) e 'h'.. haha.. wadever.. if u tink u hav been the one havin all tha FARKIN STUUPID stuffs happenin on U! then i tink u shld b tankful. cuz TELL ME BOUT IT!
n Zul, STOP IT! dun tink u r the only one with probs okey! u shld b tankful we r all here to b wit u! all the way. Jangan sampai kawan2 kau sendiri lepas tangan pasal kau!
Elfi abg, its been tyme u gt over her. we move on together remember. i'm sorry i cldnt b there for u dat tyme. i juz cldnt handle myself. apatah lagi masalah org lain.
Aniza, i simply loove u.
Anwar, thanks for everything. i mean it. oh ya e orange juice, pay u ltr. heheh. thanks alot.
i love each n everyone of u soo much. thou i mayb a lil bitch at tymes. u noe i love u. loads.

Haish.. bitch tis sarks.
i feel lyke screamin my lungs out.
i'm partly thankful tis happened.
as least i noe.
'friends' r nt 'friends' at all.
they r juz a name.
a friend.
dats all.
a hypocrite in disguise.
your greatest fear.
your closest enemy.
someone..
who 'considers'
him/herself as a 'friend'

Maybe.. erm.. Juz mayb.. u r juz not 'Friend' material..?
then dun admit u r one kay?
n dun pretend u 'care'
cuz i've seen thru u.
nuff said

i wish i could shout my lungs out.
i wish i could drown my sorrows.
i wish i could cut tis pain for blood.
i wish his shoulders was here for me.
tis is too much.
i cant take tis no more.
i'm better off dead.

hw i wish everything wld b right. again.

our future seems so dark.
everything is so unpredictable.
we r so near to our dreams.
but yet so far.
i noe u wan tis so much.
i'm tryin my best too.
things havnt been goin.
the way we want it to be.
i feel lyke givin up.
all i need is hope.
sepintas kasih
secebis harapan.
i noe u hav ur own stuffs
to tink bout.
i tired my best to help u out.
but u noe its tyme u handle it urself.
i've advised n said enuff.
i noe u are also all stressed up.
but tink bout it.
'if there's a will, there's a way'
dats wad both of us always sae.
dats wat dat hav kept our relationship goin.
the problem is there for u to
solve it
not let it remain unsolved.
but u juz wasnt tere.
each tyme tis painful tears
well up in my eyes.
u juz werent there.
i noe u tried.
but somehow
u juz didnt tried hard enuff.
i love u.
i love u alot.
n u noe dat.
thou i seldom express it
thou i seldom show it.
we went thru thick n thin
we went thru alot these 2 yrs.
we went thru shit
we went thru happy moments
we cried
we laughed
we argued
we make-up
we loved
we live in our own fairy tale
OUR fairy tale
WE, together we went thru
god noes.
its too late go end tis shit.
we loved each otr too much
too deep.
we noe
movin on wont b easy
cuz e pain is unbearable.
so lets do tis
together.
lets giv tis a chance
for us.
for aiman n for aaliyah.
i love u.
n promise me.
we'll go thru thick n thin.
together as one.
to make tis right again.

so near
yet so far


Andayu
Andayuku
all of us noe
we want tis so much
we want andayu to succeed
so much
we noe
we want tis 'bonding' btw us
so moch
but remember
we hav to work it
together.
its never just about u.
each individual.
wat we do can never please everyone.
but all we ask for is
commitment.
passion.
'darah seni'.
juz lyke us juniors
we'll try to reach out to u
n i hope e seniors will do the same.

btw the MCG room is always open frm 3pm onwards.
sometimes even earlier.
u noe wat to do.

Indra Nila Kiranaku
thou i'm oblivious bout the 'grudges'
amg u on e last performance.
but i hope.
if there's any.
put it aside
cuz we have to work
work as a TEAM
if u cant attend any practices
inform us.
anyone of us.
jgn M.I.A
kte yg kene call
tecarik carik.
Be responsible ar.
I'm kinda disspointed.
no. i'm damn disspointed.
seein Wawa's tears was juz too much
u ALL noe she put alot of effort
n i mean alot
u ALL noe she cares for us soo much.
kalau ye pun kesiankan die ar
too much hav been said bout US.
jatoh sark muke Wawa.
jatoh muke kte satu2 yg hadir.
I just need each n everyone of u
to juz sit down
sit down n tink!
ape korang buat u btol tk?
korang tk kesiankan Wawa ke?
where's your passion?
where's your commitment?
bak kata ahli fikir.
'kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga'
jgn pasal kte..
name baik Indra Nila Kirana jatoh.

Its never just about u


It pains me to c everything.
to noe everything.
each n every 'dirty' detail
dat have been happening
Its breaking apart
no. it've broken apart.
there's no use carryin on
a marriage
w/o love btw
a husband n
a wife
it juz stays hangin cuz of the
children.
n e survival of e otr party.
its wrong.
everything not right.
thou i may nt b close.
but hey.
they r the greatest of me afterall.
it kills me
to c the otrs
bein oblivious
havin to go thru tis
at such young age
choosin wit whom? why?
gawd noes
what they r actually thinkin.
it pains me.
to c tis happenin.
to c tis breakin apart
slowly..

What kills me the most is
to dissapoint the one i love most
the one whom cares for me the most
the one whu tried to giv me the best
of everything since young
the one whu always tried to fulfill my needs
my everything cuz everything is always nt enuff for me.
i dunno.
i juz kept dissapointing him again n again
i'm sorry dad.


i noe my entries r seldom freakin down. but i juz cant take tis. its been tyme i said wat hav been hidden. deep inside. thou indirectly.


all i need is hope.
sepintas kasih
secebis harapan



btw. last sunday.
i lost someone dear to me.
gone.. never coming back..
i regretted nt spending much time wit u
while u were alive.
thou u didnt stayed long
with our fam..
we treated u lyke our own..
i'm sorry
i called u names
i called u 'fatty'
i let my lil rugrat
threw u up n down
n fell flat on e ground
u cn take revenge on her u noe..
heheh
gdbye allahyarham nut-nut ku..
i miss u
very strong.
i noe chi chi also miss u alot
she's alone in her big 'apartment'
nw she dun hav any partner to erm.. erm..
R.I.P nutnut ku
i wish i could talk to u bout wads happenin
n to hav u talk back to me
juz lyke stuart lyttle u noe?
[[ i reali miss u smelly thing! ]]