im feely lousy
R E A L lousy

yesterday was out wiit BF* afiq angah n taiba
e last break fast wiit dear b4 he went in today
it was all laughters b4 tiis morning.
e same ppl together wit his parents n sibs sent him off today
however only his parents me n his sis went all e way in to Tekong

met Wawa* GF kecoooooh la okay at pasir ris!
saw her BF first n afiq was like askiin. eh kau g mane?
den he said 'tak tahu. aku call'
ape siioooooww
basically he's in e same platoon as BF*
haha slenger arr
semua enlistees kene tuck in baju la okaaaaay
kontols
wawa* pape call eh kua same2
khekhe unoeinoe*

& i totally forgot abt e ferry ride.
e last time i road a ferry i cried my hearts out to dad cus i was having a severe headache
motion sickness.
but i just wanted to spend each extra sec wiit him*
syg nyer pasal i took e ride
tgh puasa lagii.
mmg dasar cubaaaan
mabok sioow kte pt dlm
alhamdulillah i survived.chey.
& im so proud of tt la kaaan
euu motiion sickness ppl will noe laa ehh

so we were brought to e orientation at Tekong
dear is in company S-Scorpion & in sch 2
den met haida* n alamak forgot her name. tis nursing snr of mine.
all BFs n haida's abg sedara same intake. uwooooi
went into e bunk n stuffs.
spoke abt e fastiing mth prayers n how's e traiings etc.
not much of a diff laaarh
y not kasi 1 week or lagi bagoooos 1 mth off for raye
tt will b much of a news for orientation.
feeling

i guess e orientation basically aims to ally e anxiety of e parents
mothers who just cant stop worrying
fathers who went thru ARMY time dulu dulu ooooo.
which is noting compared to now.
many items r issued. customised to size lagii.
so dtg bwk barang sikit longgok pt pastic bag je pun ade cantek. heh
havin a brief insight of ARMY life tere
i cant imagine how giile dieorg boleh dibuat if eir GF's left em during army days
now i understand. .

wawan's* mom cried
i was trying my best to hold my tears
wawa GF da 'jgn nangiis jgn nangiis'
setitik je air mata jatuh
kalau ikot kan hati aku da tesedu2 pt sane. uwoooi
salam ayg. .
he wouldnt evn look at me
he's afraid of breakiin down tere
tiis's not e time to tangkap maiintaiin eh syg

im just blank
i kept breakin down a few times today mcm bdk bodo
e bus ride home was a looong one.
im jus so used to haviin u ard evrywhr
its killin me
everythiing i do reminds me of you*
i dun wish to say any further.

but aku adela tgh sediih jln balek sorang2
da tenangiis sikit
skali aku tenpk Mr Alawdiin la whokaaaay
haha. after so long
'ill break your knee cap!' uwoooi!
okay ni sec sch inside joke.
so GF*s kontols kentalss korang tawuu la kaaaan
aku teketawe sendiri tehembus hingus
ewwww. heh
& its funny how i shouted in e lift
da sedih nk mampos.
luckily no one heard.
i think

BF* called just now.
rupe nyer when we both turn our backs to go
air mata die menitik nitik la whookaaaay
haahaa
npk sah tk nk nangiis dpn aku.
tangkap mantaiin jerr
im glad he met up wiit his friends tere
kawan skola laa kwn bola laa kwn aku nyer matair laa
haha
sumtimes when we go out together we met alg e way so many of his friends
aku sampai rasa aku ni mcm tkde kwn laa gituuuu
he also told me bout tiis china boii yg kekek nk mampos.
heh
tolong la korang JANGAN b u l l y die.
dieorg da la selenger bachiins*

no matter whuat
im sure tiis experience wld b a memorable one for hiim for sure & his list of friends
he also da siang2 letak our pixel pt wardrobe nyer cermiin
f e e l i n g! kaaaan pagi2 tgk cermiin
'eh! syg aku tgh senyum pt aku!' uwoooii!
heh
okay la i shall not mepek any further
gg to do LATE NIGHT internet shopping !!
maklumlaaah BF* aka mera shopping khakii kuss* da NS

btw BF booking out on 1st october which is a Monday
bookiin in back late at 9.30pm on Wednesday
priviledged to e muslims to break fast wiith family
im family too u noe. heh
eh but mcm aku attachment ar!! babii laa
afternoon shift till Weds summore. arg!
g mampos aku nk AWOL.
chey. mcm paham -.-'
Passing Out Parade (POP) on 11th December. tt i cant waiit to wiitness.
posting to unit on 26th December. uhuhuhuhuu
late bcus of christmas
& which means he has 2 weeks wiith me n also on my b i r t h d a y !
sukeee skalii
tak sia sia kaaan birthday on christmas. spe-sial*

lastly. .
maceeeh EM* gf
cus called me jus to ask how i am.
love u truckloads* Friday jumpe kays!
liana* tercinta. chey.
for your accompany today tmr and until 2 yrs time. haha
nadia* GF
kerna mulut celupah aku.skg BF da pt camp.
thank euu fer e advices gf. outing on sat! uhuhuhuhu
wawa* kalau nk nangiis call aku. haha
wirna GF*
ya its hard
u soo have to b here fer me then.
must! cus u promised. heh
afiq* aku takoot sioww ! haha
thank you for your concern.
kau kene jage aku baek2 tauuu.
hahaa tkpe la aku leh jage diri sendiri
& insyallah thiings wld b better for you soon*
dun worry too much ayt.
elfi* tahuu je eh
thanks for e advice too abg. ur missed too.
lim adam aezril* full name tu aku kasi
yg tak lame lagi nk g Taiwan den naek pangkat sergeant.
dan menharapkan dpt balek tekong nk tekan matair aku
kau mimpi je la ehhh.
anyways thanks for e insight n advices as well. c u on saturday too!
zulkiflee* bbf
how cn i ever thank euu enuff.
y must u all b in NS! taiik ar
shafiq*
kan mak kau da nangiis. . best friend mak ngan mak ciik aku tu!
haahaa gossip mak ciks* uhuhuhuhu
get well soon la so balek camp cn jumpe matair aku. heehee
btw thanks for e assurance.
dan juga org2 gile yg pt msn asyiik kacau aku.
esp izzat* yg da gile jus drew my name on paint w/o a 'h'
shit euu. pls re-do.

basically thank you ppl for e company n advices*

youknowyouloveme*