sometin happened juz nw. . i'm too weak to even lift ma littyle fingers to type tis. . tha worst feelin i ever had is dat i cant tell no one bout what tha truth is n what i feel ryte nw. . i juz wish i could lie down onto someone's lap n tell him everytin. . n dat he'll b strokin ma hair all tha tyme i'm on his lap. . n i'll b cryin on his shoulders after dat. . i noe i'll feel better. . i reali will. .